When the mind is free

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So I working with this organization that is into providing services. A lot of things happen when you work with a startup company, and specially when its start of your career. I was young, dynamic with loads of energy to do a lot. Always on the toes to do things I always wanted to do for a company I wanted to join. And since it was the first job, I always wanted to put in more efforts. It was like a deep emotional connection.

The Network in which I frequently communicated was happy to know that they are being heard. Also I would do everything to satisfy their expectations which normally a very good company does. 

It was perhaps because my mind was free and I could focus a lot better than my peers. 

And then came a dark time in my life, I fell prey to mental illness and my condition worsened to the point I had to be admitted to a rehab center. After All of those things happened and I was back to my job, everything changed. I was already emotionally broken down into millions of pieces. For me, fr the next 2.5 years was the hardest. I was always on my medication and sleeping. Once I slept for 3 days only getting up to eat something. I knew that I was being ignored by my peers and boss for everything I say or did. I tried lots of things to keep going. I was even abused verbally from my colleagues, but I had no other option, but to keep going. It feels  bad crying from the inside. 

My colleagues even would not share my lunch, but that's Ok, it's their choice. I was also not involved into decision making anymore. I wanted to just leave the organization and go to another one, but I gave some interviews and could make to them as I could not structure my words then, probably due to the medication that I took. Secondly, I also felt that I cannot leave the organization without doing something great. So I doing these mudane tasks and the tenure of boss was finished. I was happy about that because in those 2.5 years, he never had a single meeting with me. He would only talk to all except me. Thank God! Some sight of relief 😌.  Then the new boss joined who did not have prejudice about anyone. I definitely knew this is the time I do my best now. So I did something amazing that anyone from my company or parent company could not even think of doing. I really really thank this man for not being prejudiced.  And I was happy to work with him. 

So, I have now decided to move to a new organization, after proving my worth. I am happy 😊 and I am proud that I have guts to face all my fears and weaknesses. I even receive calls from the parent company on how I did that amazing great thing which and till date, they have no clue how it will be done.

Peace!

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